One HR friend’s story of sexual assault

An early morning text message we all need to read
By Todd Humber
|Canadian HR Reporter|Last Updated: 10/31/2018

On Sept. 29, I woke up to a 722-word text message sent by a dear friend I don’t see nearly enough. It took a minute for me to realize what I was reading.

It was the in-depth story of a woman — a friend, wife, mother, daughter, HR professional — who had been inappropriately touched at a work function.  And when I say inappropriately touched, I mean sexually assaulted. Because that’s what it was.

With her permission, I’m sharing her story. At her request, it is anonymous. And at my choosing, I’ve included a lot of details about what happened to her — because it matters.

“I felt confused, incredulous and really, really angry. I felt stifled, backed into a corner and small,” she wrote.

“How can that have just happened? My boss was sitting next to me the whole time. There was a room full of other people. Later that night, he got a service award to recognize his years with the organization. I clapped. I played it over and over and over in my head: How can that have just happened? How can he have done that? How did he know I wouldn’t say anything?”

There were only two women in the room full of men, and she was the most junior person at the table. It was like every other meeting — a formal agenda, data to review, lunch brought in. Boilerplate corporate world stuff.

“At that point, would it have been appropriate for me to stand up and say ‘Stop. Don’t touch me. How dare you grope me?’ What words do you use to say, ‘You are groping my ass under the table with your foot?’ And ‘I can’t believe you are doing this. I moved out of the way three times, and you kept doing it,’” she wrote.

“The rest of the leadership team and his boss would say what? And the off-site would then dissolve into what? It would either painfully disintegrate or we’d continue as if nothing happened?”

My friend continued with a stream of questions about when or how it would have been appropriate to come forward: “Once I’ve figured out the impact on my career?” “When I’ve figured out that if I report it, I won’t be able to work with these individuals again because it would be mortifying?” “When I figure out that if I report it to HR, and it’s investigated, there will be no one to back me up?”

That is a stream of questions that are impossible to answer. It sums up, powerfully and painfully, why coming forward isn’t as easy or black-and-white as some people like to pretend.

My friend thought about how to respond for weeks — running through a gamut of emotions that included anger and disappointment with herself.

“This isn’t the woman I thought I was,” she said.

She made a plan to confront the man, spoke to HR off the record — as a protection against retaliation — and called him.

“He apologized immediately. He said he’d hurt his back and had been having trouble getting comfortable,” she said.

“I said ‘no.’ I told him I had moved away from him three times and each time his foot returned.”

She warned him that although she wouldn’t be making a formal complaint, if there was ever a hint of anything similar happening, “he would regret it immediately.”

Immediately, she felt a weight lift from her — “Taking my power back felt awesome.”

This is a person I admire more than most, who is stronger than average and, frankly, would be among the last people I would expect to stay silent. And that, to me, says more than anything about the difficulty of women coming forward in the wake of an assault and why they deserve the benefit of the doubt — even if it takes decades to reach a point where they can tell their stories.

“Women dominate HR, yet we can’t get it figured out,” she said. “(Women have) no true power. We are at the table by the generosity of our male leaders. And our success relies on them liking us.”

This is not, as some are now advocating, an era where it is a scary time to be a young man. That, frankly, is bullshit.

It remains what it has always been — something driven home by U.S. President Donald Trump, who turned Christine Blasey-Ford’s recollection of a painful, life-altering event — which she related at a Senate hearing looking into the nomination of Brett Kavanaugh as Supreme Court judge — into punchlines at a political rally in Mississippi a week later.

Punchlines about sexual assault from a global leader that actually generated laughter from the audience — that’s where we are in 2018.

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